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 i love God, i love my friends, i love church, i love good intentions, i love helping, i love music, i love martial arts, i love taekwondo, i love fighting, i love going out, i love LAN, i love hazlenut latte, i love planes, i love flying, i love my juniors, i love my clannies, i love australia, i love western countries, i love temperate climates, i love chilling, i love dreaming, i love adrenaline, i love teaching, i love serving, i love contributing, i love town, i love movies, i love adidas, i love shopping, i love dressing up, i love swimming, i love laughing, i love excitement, i love sillyness, i love intelligence, i love maturity, i love far thinkingness, i love real smiles, i love genuine, i love security, i love confidence, i love st andrews, i love WWW, i love making things, i love sleeping, i love beef steaks, i love fish, i love chocolate, i love redbull, i love coke, i love coffee, i love my black belt, i love fond memories, i love meeting new people, i love meeting old friends, i love the beach, i love nice scenery, i love cycling, i love the night, i love models, i love thin, i love haagen dazs, i love ruffles, i love cheese, i love onion rings, i love fast food, i love cold weather, i love mountains, i love hardcore, i love wild, i love notorious, i love modern, i love thinking, i love amazement, i love awe, i love youth, i love kids, i love down to earth, i love chalets, i love BBQ, i love parties, i love conservativeness, i love anticipating, i love planning, i love leadership, i love intimacy, i love western food, i love friendliness, i love being busy, i love getting involved, i love stoning, i love lazing around, i love non conformist, i love good natured people, i love singapore, i love malls, i love urban, i love being loved, i love love-just like you:)
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now that wasn't too hard was it? October 27 Is anyone ever good enough?Now, i am under immense pressure to get one.
Last time it was the "omg?" or "what happened??" look when people found out I didnt have a girlfriend. People, please don't impose these kind of reactions on me. As for my close friends.. yeeah, I probably deserve it if you guys said that.
Sometimes it seems like some fluke. I mean, I have barely been able to make any dependable friends, this past 1 and a half years. Let alone a girlfriend. Its just so... wtf right? Or maybe its just an excuse. Im trying to convince myself im making an excuse. Be it self righteousness, inability to find the right one whatsoever. Amelia. Thats her name. It has always been her, and only her. And of course, Im over her.. like duh.. thats why I said that name. And now, to think that a movie had to come out with that title "Amelia"??? YES AND OMG SAW 6 IS COMNG OUT HOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok that was so no link
There always had been prettier girls, girls who were elegant in their own way, and importantly, they had a good heart. But I dont know, they didnt seem to appeal. Things would have worked out. Like there were all the you know... signs.... hints... stares... etc. But I seem so unattracted? AND NO, this is not an instance of a guy becoming gay or anything. Everytime I tried to explain how I felt about her, to --> edbert and dhinesh, it just seemed like I was talking fish language to them, or to them I just seemed plain - fucking retarded. They never understood how I felt, and I dont blame them, because I have yet to come across a person who does.
And Im living in my own world. Walking in town, music blasting, hands shoved in my pocket I walk. Walking through the flow of people, my mind is in its own world wondering how did I manage to fall out from my indifference and fall so flat out for a girl? Its probably unhealthy. And also, to whoever is reading this blog. Seriously. Why would anyone read a blog that's updated a few times a month? I dont get it. Maybe its the same group of people wondering what's going on in my mind. At least, from tonight on, you'll know her name. And im really afraid of hurting other people upon posting this entry.
I always hope. That sometime, somewhere, somehow, I would meet the right one. We would be the same. You could just see it in our eyes, how we fit together, how people would say "wow, these two were made for each other" and there couldn't have been a better match or maybe, how we just wouldn't care about the rest of the world and start living in our new lives loving each other. I believe in the love I know. It does exist, I've seen it and Im sure of it.
Use your heart,
And never settle for something less.
The right one is truely worth waiting for October 20 Back2BasicsBack2Basics. That was the top clan in Gunz.
Sigh, holidays ended and the first day of school was yesterday. You know starting school again seems somewhat like giving up my normal life. Well from now till like dec, I'll be living in a little hole waiting for holidays to come again. Sometimes I feel people are just lacking the "basic" stuff that makes a person. Like the basics you expect people to have, can be obviously seen lacking in many people. Its just back to basics. But at least, now there's some form of hope. I made it to aerospace. You know, its been a while since anyone told me that we're the best-or rather supposed to be. And one thing's for sure, im not. But at least im being told that im supposed to, and that makes me somewhat more focused in life.
Hmmm, I DID actually managed to complete some of the stuff I had to do during the hols. Shopping? Repaired the F2B plane, not much work done on the F2D. Ate some good food this hols, and spent like so much lol. way to much, shopping, WWW, chalet, BBQ, movies LAN and maybe a lil of fine dining. Been going out like almost everyday... Oh well, it was worth it. I was kinda amazed I only spent 3 bucks yesterday.
Oh yes, and on the last weekend, I flew the F2B plane. Was a little nervous but all went well. (imagine flying a plane worth a few hundred, zz scary man) Sunday we went LAN all the way into the night lol, pretty awesome.
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New Ownage Style October 12 Fight much?Last friday night was great.
went down to wild wild wet, jimmy and the whole jing gang of st andrews peeps. Then later on, I went all the way up north to check out some martial arts stuff. Had a good chat with some passionate martial artists till like 11pm? It just felt soo good, unleashing the whole barage of information that I had on this topic which was all cramped up in my head for so long.. onto them.
Whilst talking to them, it just struck me. There are a number of arrogant fighters out there. Really. Everytime I talk to some martial arts guy, it seems like he's trying to sell himself or something. Anddddd..... as usual, I was the youngest there. Lol? why is it always like that? That night everyone there was like 23? 20 plus? And this other guy freaking had a wife and prolly a couple of kids. Even back in the old MMA or "ken" club, I was the youngest lol. It was later disbanded when some of the members went for NS. And I kinda realised that i was still in sec school. But I guess fighting older, taller and heavier people has given me some valuable experience.
Even on that night, I witnessed this sparring session, this wing chun guy unleashing all his 6 years of skills on a humble opponent. Was really surprised. Wing chun is actually a cut from the rest, probably the next "level" of fighting you can say.
Haha, so now you might know just a little more about me.
Mark-
October 06 FaithFaith, is a nice name ain't it?
There's just a nice meaning behind it, one of hope. And nope, having hope shouldnt be seen as being pathetic. Afterall, sometimes we're just bound to fall down in life. Just like love, you havent really loved her, if you haven't really fallen flat out for her. Well thats just what I believe.
We just gotta have faith in friendships and relationships. There's just too much to think about. There's just so much one can do. In the end, you gotta have faith in your best friends. And in the end, you just gotta leave it to her.
Sometimes, you have to leave it all up to God dont you think? And hope. Hope that the long time you spent with your best friends were significant, and you just hope everything negative is just a passing moment. Sometimes, you trust that she felt it too. And leave it to God and fate, and trust that if we were really meant, then by fate good things will happen.
Faith, hope, trust, fate and God.
Tschau
September 21 DisclaimerWooooow
The past few weeks of holidays have been reeeely happening man. The latest thing that happened was Polyforum 09. And yeah, at the final presentation towards the minister..... yes everyone, I know I look freaking ugly in the video, and NO, I DID NOT SEND THAT SMS TO THE SCREEN THINGIE OR ANYTHING SAYING THAT I WAS CHINDIAN AND ALL THAT(althought it seemed like I was the most likely suspect), and I managed to lose 2kg. Lol? here me out please before I sound like a woman
Firstly, about the part where I look freaking ugly in the video. Ya, when I came on the screen wow.. I really got a shock, it was like some ugly ogre that took the form of the president of chindia saying some propaganda regarding Singapore. Ya, of course everyone from other subthemes were telling me how exceptionally ugly I looked and..... everyone from my subtheme was telling me that I looked like darth vader from star wars (lol? I didnt know he had EYES). Its like there was this part where I said "youths of Singapore" SO apparently when I said youths, my eyebrows moved up and my EYES bulged out. Hokay. really man w/e. Haha ok yeah it was pretty funny too. They were so completely going rofl on that. Like even 2 days before the prsentation they were already laughing lol, Zzz.
Secondly, I DID NOT SEND THAT SMS TO THE BIG SCREEN (the one we had during the presenatation). My first thought of that was "wow this guy really got the guts" and even more, he really DID sound like me. Yes and im really proud that the minister was a chindian too. My mom likes him lol.
She's like..
"Marky, I think he's a really good minister"
"why?"
"oh, because he's very handsome and someday I hope you grow up to be like him"
Lol? wtf mate.
And... Lastly, I lost 2 kg. I'm back to 60 already. When exams ended, I had like 2 weeks of poly forum. I've been going out and going out sooooo much that I barely even spend 5 whole days at home till this day. So much that my Dad is freaking pissed and my mom just thinks I got a girlfriend(see?? everyone thinks I've got a gf. so irritating). And 2 weeks before polyforum, I put on 2 kg, and when I went into the preforum and the actual polyforum, we were fed with like 5 meals a day sort of thing, 3 course meals and buffets. Well at least miraculously I managed to shed that 2 kg off, and be light enough to fight in my own taekwondo category, if i want to. That was the main reason regarding why I wanted to shed the weight. ye
During PF 09, I made it a point not to disclose to anyone about my taekwondo background. Not that it meant anything much. But it was just that I didnt want any possible bad scenarios to happen. My friend has like a ton of "pretty bad stuff" going on. its not that we're boasting or anything. Infact im like freaking hiding it and lying im like some low colour belter with "not much experience" at the expense of letting people think I have no life and no interest and am a boring person. oh well, if this information gets to the ears of the childish, the insecure and the (i forgot the word), nothing nice will happen. I only thought these sort of people existed on tv and stuff, no in reall life lol, unimaginable, the stupidity of humanity. Sooooo.. its just better to shut up about it. Martial Arts its like the only thing I do thats interesting lol.
Anyway, I thought that the minster was really respectable. Like he gained my complete respect not just because he was a minister, but because he had a good personality. If you noticed he managed to "silence" us, a crowd of 300 students. He was the only speaker which did that. He also took the "offensive" approach abd dared to step out of his comfort zone in debating. And furthermore, he said he was of mixed background, said that he was chindian and even elaborated on which parent was which race. I mean, who would have done that? Being mixed, the most I would tell people is that Im mixed, and leave them to guess the rest. But him, he said it infront of 300 people and even told them what race which of his parents were. respectable.
Mark- September 06 My TKD HiatusLast night was fun!
haha yeah and I kinda brought my mom, just for her to see what I've been up to for so long. Yeah. Everything went on just fine :)
And today, I had to skip church for Taekwondo's Pesta Sukan Nats. Basically I'm taking a break from tkd. I saw my grading card, my first promotion to the higher belt was in 2001. So its like at least 8 years in taekwondo, this year counting the 9th.
Its been a journey, spending almost half my life learning martial arts. No, not just taekwondo, but MMA, joining a little "fight club" and learning more about street fighting, developng my interest etc. No, not that I'm good or anything lol, but its just the information that fascinates me... And one of the things that I never ever anticipated is that you get all these childish people challenging you know, Its like just because you've got a black belt or smth, people see it as some sort of bounty on your head. Sooooooo they try to fight you and claim some sort of title. Its really hard to imagine this level of childishness at the age of 18. But anyway, things have been going on well.
After not going for tkd since january this year, I discovered today that my skills are still intact? Well yeah sorta, my own training paid off. I'm a little afraid of going for competitions ever since this year, im in senior cat now, and head kicking is allowed. Imagine the injuries that could be sustained from sparring? it takes well below half a second for a kick to reach you face. And with a skilled opponent, it can for sure do some damage. Its not the pain im afraid of, but the injury. Ok and I gotta face it too, Im not good enough. Head kicking is a whole new era in taekwondo style fighting which I dont exactly want to dive into wihtout testing the waters first, with some proper training and sparring yea prolly I'll make it :)
Witnessed a few fierce fights and painful take downs today.
But thats what I love :)
this is me August 31 7 weeks baby!And so.....
Exams ended last tues and before I knew it, I was already fully booked that whole week. It was kinda a good feeling, 7 weeks of hols, coming back home late for like almost everyday, and getting settled on the long list of procrastinated jobs that have yet to be done. And yes! Finally my parents were scolding me again for coming back home late, which just proved that I've been enjoying myself wooohoooooooo!!!
1.Tidy my wardrobe
2.Settle SAYFC stunt, combat, and engines
3.New graphics card
4.CATCH UP ON SOCIAL LIFE..... zomg
5.visit orpc
6.Shop!
7.Buy new furniture for room
8.HOW COULD I FORGET?? Resume my self taught Martial arts training. Z
That wouldn't make any sense to most people reading this. Well, it isn't supposed to. Personal Reference. Seriously? I thought this list was longer.
Oh and btw, I'm signed on msn right now, and i've been observing some of my contacts. I've added some reeely weird people, like when I actually see how they look like on their dp, I get a shock Like, I was playing around with my new PC and suddenly this contact appears, this guy named "Lee" with a picture of him looking like Eminem. Canadians, americans, netherlanders, aussies, communists, democrats, republicants, terrorists, IRA, arabs. You name it I got it.
Cheers to my 7 weeks of holidays
Mark August 02 FearBad dreams. That's what kids have right? Then convince me I'm not a kid.
My life in general has been changing pretty much. I'm making really hard decisions and looking to my past with much jealousy. Sometimes, I feel that there's only so much juice you can squeeze out of a lemon, other than that its time to move on. And even so, it feels like I'm wasting my life away. I've been too used to contributing, teaching people things etc. And when I dont do so for some strange reason I feel like a wastrel. Bleah, no link to what I've got to say today.
Ok, so, saturday was pretty fun, saw the new stunt plane fly, cs till really late reached home sleeping at 1am. And thats when my little nightmare started. Usually when people have nightmares... Well im not sure about you guys. When I have it, I go on looking to see what will happen next. You know the "playing along" sorta thing. But this one was different. It was so damn real. (If you were thinking im going to blog about my dream, I AM! haha deal with it or close the window :) )
You wont treasure your loved ones till you lose them. And in that dream, I dreamnt that the person I was about to lose had like 30 days left to live due to some sort of cancer(starting with c i think) and yeah, in the dream I visited places in my life, school and orpc(church). Not really favourable conditions I would say. But I was really really sad. Like with a hopless feeling and a sorrowful dread as I carried on with the count down. I remembered in church everyone I standing and singing. I just sat there with tears in my eyes and turned to my favourite hymm, hopeing to find some sort of comfort or happiness.
And then came this scenario(the final part, yes guys I know this is reeeeeely boring for you but I do feel I have to blog about my Zzzz dream...) This guy came to rob the precious someone who had 30days to live. Yeah. I remembered. The first thing that came to my mind - with whatever skills I have learnt I was going to take him down and injure him. ANDDD>>>>>>>> Just before I went rendezvous the dream ended.
haha! yeah eeveryone must have gone... Omg! you skipped the most interesting part!!! m y b l og i s n o t f o r e n t e r t a i n m e n t. There was a huge lump in my throat and my pillow was wet with tears. ITS NOT DROOL FOR SURE, cause my eyes were wet. I didnt know I had so much tears. Crying like a little baby.
Anyway, my sensitive and seemingly stupid and pathetic and boring blog entry about a silly dream that made me cry is to tell you that sometimes, you wont treasure your loved ones until you lose them. And the reason I DID cry was because I seemed so real, and then again, I didnt know I had so much tears. Well, hopefully I'll take this as a lesson and so would you. (you'll never imagine what happened that day. Im scared as hell)
Take care everyone cya guys
June 21 June 18thThats it! I'm 18 woohoooo!!! Cheers to me, myself and my friends who are 18 or have yet to reach my age
You know, its like when I was a kid, I used to look into a future and wonder what I'd be like when I was 18. I remember the exact moment back in pri 1. Standing there at the quadrangle wondering about the 11 years from now. Back then I thought 18 was a cool number, and I therefore wanted to be 18? HAHA Could you imagine that? And along with that I also thought that if I had as many lollipops as I wanted, I would be the happiest child alive.
Had YFC camp from the 17th to the 19th. Of course, I went for that. Juniors are more important than my w/e selfish plans I had for the sake of celebrating my b day on the 18th. Juniors are more important. On the 17th, had to pass my dpa frnd some stuff, the outing with my frnds were cancelled. Had a meeting till like 12 midnight? Hung out with the legendary Marcus and had a really meaningful chat 12-2am. You know, the sort of stuff that guys don't usually say to each other. Its been 4 years since we knew each other? We fought/argued but he's still my most trusted friend.
He was really happy that day, and of course I felt jealous. But to think of it, I'm really happy being single this year. Not that I was double last year but.. its hard to explain. And its hard for me to fall in love again.
Nope, there wasn't any parties or movies or outings planned for me so far. But I think I spent my birthday meaningfully. With some of my good friends-the trainers, and the "exaggerated" cloned version of me. HAHA, omg im so bad HOMIESSSS WHERE ARE YOU IDIOTS
Sick today, spent 15 hours sleeping?
See you around guys! May 29 Tell me whyWhat are we doing here?
Huh?
What are YOU doing here?
I don't know.
You shouldn't have come to this place, you could have done so much better
Yeah I know, I regretted it.
Its the biggest joke of all time, and I still don't get it why
Then why are you like that? Haven't you learnt, anything?
I don't know.
How hard do you have to hit the ground before you learn?
I don't know.
This is what I mean by hopelessness.
I have already given up. Is there any light ahead?
JAKEs. This is so stupid. I mean seriously, you should have treasured
You don't get it, no one understands
I told you already
I'm lost. And I don't regret what happened. I still believe. I had to go through it
To hell with it
May 05 CCAlessnessJust about this time last year I was about the busiest man alive! hahar Dpa had ended and I was already in a CCA, CSC(community service club). Then I joined Judo and Rugby(contact). And... I was already in an external CCA, YFC in both the flying and the CCA side. And.......(again) not to mention my awesome favourite pastime, I am also in Taekwondo, 7 years and counting.
But now, I have already left my 3 poly CCAs and I havent been going for tkd training since january. Gosh I have like 100% no form of excercise. Recently I went for badminton tryouts in TP, failed miserably. I went there learning that there was apparently a pro and cool way of PLAYING badminton. Lol ok like wth. Well this was the best of the best. Then, I joined track. I figured I probably had the build for this kinda thing? Tall thin and light. But no, it didnt change the fact that I didnt like any of the CCAs I joined this year.
It wasn't as physical as I hoped for? Hard to explain, less hardcore less aggressive and blah. Like imagine taekwondo, fight or sparr to see who's the best and it involves inflicting strikes on another person. And when you train, its to training to be the fittest fastest strongest and the most intimidating player. So I mean I really have no passion for badminton and track and field. Yeah, I'm in track. The people there are great and really nice, they emphasize on sportsmanship and character, lesser on competiveness. This is something I feel I should learn. And hopefully I'll stay on to at least have a "life" in poly and not be CCAless, make some great friends and HAVE A FORM OF EXCERCISE hahaha April 25 Polotics" Please be informed that there would be am official stepping down ceremony this friday. Report at 1430 in the appropriate attire, those who are not properly attired will not be allowed to participate . It has been great having you guys as juniors. God bless. Mark JP " yada yada yada blah blah blah
Of course I have to admit that it was rather hard to say the last two lines, no matter how indifferent it sounded. And I was that sure no matter what experience we left them with, they still felt a sense of belonging to the club. (thus explaining the sudden surge of attendance) I've been with them for like 4 years? And there goes the most talented bunch of juniors, along with all the "stuff" that happened along this long and perilous journey with all their acomplishments and "accomplishments" Haha, some of you guys should know what i mean
We as a club have been really blessed with capable leaders, so much that we strongly insist on our own way of doing things because we are so sure of it. Large amounts of resources etc. But we aren't succeeding as much as I hoped for, because in the end the biggest variable in ANY organisation is not money, logistics, talent, goodwill and blah, but PEOPLE. Yes I said it, its people. Their way of thinking, their insecurity, character and goals. We as humans are imperfect, and i feel that the only thing that can guide us in this is morals,values and God himself.
Polotics.
Even as I am typing I am sure that whatever is said in this entry could be used against me(thats why its in so little detail and sounds so dam constipated) hahas. Well, wherever there are people, there are politics. I always felt politics are for the weak, people trying to reverse the odds putting themselves at a better position using underhand methods. My take on it is that it will never work. Its just like trying to remove some's birthright, or convincing an intelligent man that he's stupid. All one can do is remove the fruits of his success, but with such qualities, his accomplishments would keep coming right? Black is black and white is white.
When everyone is against you, your real friends stand up for you even if EVERY single odd is against them. From everyone hating me to- me holding the highest position and a high rank and several accomplishments. No mater what you do, you cant change what I have inorder to get that. You may change people's perceptions of me, but in the end time will tell. Black is black and white is white.
The only thing I wished was for my political opponent to look a liltte more intimidating
HAHA lolololooloololllllllllllll
And... Good bye to the "not so little" juniors :) March 26 Facebook.... wth MarkOooook. Like ok. Long story short, I got facebook. To me its like a major catastrophy and I wonder how it happened.
The only two people(on the face of this planet) who disturb me MANAGED TO FORCE ME TO GET FACEBOOK. Omg its like now i need to get my other friends to get it too.
They were like..
Omg we need to force that idiot to get facebook!
IHATE MARK HAHAHA:P
I hate mark too!!
Hi-5!!
WAIT TILL HE SEES THIS MAN
Haha! ask him to join facebook la. That idiot is so skeptical about things... :(
LOL... WE can alternate you know... chat here better than on msn. Ah lets create for him!
Ya imagine I was toying with my facebook and amazed with howmany "FRIENDS" I made and I stumbled upon this evil plot(Look above) to get me an acc for facebook.
So what could I say when the evil plot was uncovered?
ME : Wtf?
Lool see you guys around
March 19 Titled UntitledLast night I had a romantic dream. Whoa bad luck.
Definitely not the way to start the day. Ever since hols started things were really happening for me, chalet, 2 bbqs, 4 hazelnut lattes, swimming, cycling, lanning till 11pm, a camp, staying out late etc. And tomorrow is paintball, followed by a really boring holiday(well thats just my anticipation)
I've been watching smallville, and it kinda struck me that MANY of the characters are the people who I actually know in real life. Im sure its the same for many other people... Having bad friends who genuinely care about you, your best friend clique who somehow end up being our parents HAHA, girl friends etc. Two mondays ago I went over to the pool in TP, swam with a few dpa friends and it kinda brought back memories. Many stuff had changed in comparison with the time I last went there. You know i led the life where i had nothing to hide, nothing to keep a secret because you're too embarrassed and no regrets. That changed last year.
Some things change, somethings dont. Some times we gotta play the game well, and find out what we treasure the most, and what we really want. My gang says that I've got the best life. Yes that may be true. But who leads the worst life, a person with no money begging, or a person who had plenty but lost it all so he ended up begging - just like the other guy?
Life is like that, we all want something else, we've just gotta treasure what we have
Mark-
February 27 Dead RoseAwesome, I cant believe how great I feel. Am I on drugs or smth? caffeine sugar adrenaline gosh. You know back a few days during the exams I was feeling so high. 20 mins before the paper everyone was like soooo damn tensed and i was like... "I'M FEELING HIGH WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO" Lol, he looked infront of me and from head to toe.. "Mark, wtf" ok
Ye and I'm over Cocaine
 25.2.09To those that know what it means. First time in a long time I boarded the bus, my dpa frnd happened to be taking the same trip. And there was this girl staring at me. It happens to me a third of a time. But surprisingly I got that feeling like, "omg she;s staring". you know that feeling that is supposed to get you a lil excited. Yeah, It has been happening, but I havent felt that way for like a few months. It just felt different? and good
I mean staring is no big deal, everyone gets it andit doesnt mean that your good looking, its just bored people staring around or people staring at you coz they thought you looked at them or smth. haha
I just wonder when am I going to feel the way I felt when I was "on cocaine"? I probably made a few girls jealous taking cocaine instead. I never meant that? Its just so fucked. Take care everyone( I mean it )
Lets hang out till midnight again
Mark- February 14 Save it for America's SuiteheartsThis year started this jan, stuff happened. It was only then did i realise how important a guy's ego was. My friends were really really putting in good words for me, you could see some knew what happened but they just all acted like nth did. I can say I never really deserved such a high "status" or what so ever. Strings were pulled and the red sea parted just for me, and of course I was carrying more then just myself. No one even came close to where I did, and like I said there were people who deserved it more than me. Yes, when it happened I told only my close friends. I cried that day, and on one of the nights. Unimaginable. I feel so... I dont know, normal? ordinary? It feels pathetic, but good at the same time
OK WELL THIS WEEK I'VE BEEN GOING OUT TOOOO OFTEN. wed night, my friends waited 2 hours for me? went over to sakae sushi and I went around looking for hazelnut latte(it rocks lol, i had a dream about it). Coffee bean makes me happy :) thurs night went out with the legendary homies. dhin kinda rekindled back, bert had a date and i was the same as usual.. First time i nearly gave into peer pressure. I was on the verge of snapping lol. But in the end i didnt, whats the point? she isnt the one i love. Not exactly the homies that forced me or anything, in the endthey were against it,I just felt so lonely.
YA and what happened today? I woke up looking really horrid(it happens every valentines, including last year) I went over to SU and gosh i knew i couldnt avoid it. Yeah, brought back memories. My friends were with me. Yeah, I was starring at it like/.... dunno what. I mean i dont even stare at girls like that. Got some stuff settled and kinda decided to pull something daring off in the long runlol. A gamble between arrogance and losing face. HAHA! im in it for the kicks. Well i got the resources to pull it off.
And oh ya! last night, which was fri night i met Ron and his gf, had a lil chat and gosh while we were talking his gf was like observing us lol, she looked so adorable. DONT TELL HIM I SAID THAT. Sweet and feminine. Blush. Yes and the same night, had a chat over dinner with with juniors and friends. Im just under the impression im not as nice as last year.
have a good day everyone!!
bird boy's gf is soo gonna bloom like a flower
 January 18 January 18thI'll be leaving my house soon, to go for edbert's charity thing, project rice. He really spent alot of effort into this one,
and it was really good seeing that everything went on smoothly without any kinks. The least the Homies could do was
support him right? Yeah, it was really great seeing bert holding a high position, south zone director and being confident,
and decisive. What you learn from being a leader.
But there are many drawbacks from too much leadership. From what I've learnt, its almost "incurable". Well hopefulyl jonald
and shaun would come today! haha, sounds like dhin overslept or smth.
Sigh, my entry today looks like some hypnotising stuff you force people to read to go to sleep. Well, its 7.30 AM. WHAT DO
YOU EXPECT MAN!! HAHA. Ok well I woke up today to FREAKING blog was kinda to commemorate some stuff. --------------------
January 18th
In Memory
January 01 First day of 09Isn't it great that yesterday's business along with all the past 364 days are last year's problems. And today will be the start of a brand new year!
So enjoy your 1st day of 2009! Have loads of fun and hapiness ahead cos you will have to wait for another 364 days to get this feelin again!
HappyNewYear!
Edbert-
Well i decided to put it up cause i kinda found his sms meaningful. True right? but of course not to the extend that you REALLY forget about past
year's problems. just know when its time to let go
Spent today
1.Playing a bit of computer
2.Playing Monopoly (yes, was kinda great doing kiddy stuff)
3.doing DEFUND PROJECT
4.Studying for my next flight ( clogged up 5 plus hours already!!)
5.Carrying a pie from my friends house and back
Bye :)
December 31 The Year Of 2008Yes, 2008 was great.
Probably more of an emotional roller coaster that I would never predict I would ever go through. In comparison to 07, HAHA yeah well I guess 07 was kinda "monotone" you can say, the same thing in an out for the whole year. Some things I regret doing till today and decisions I've made. Well, its NOT THAT BAD ACTUALLY. But surprisingly I just concerned about people's feelings. yeah you can say, I prolly got a heart after all. Gah.
God really really blessed me this year, took many stuff, and people for granted. Well I guess i have to learn the hard way. AND the hard way is next year(its not brought upon myself actually, just a ticking time bomb)
Kinda in a rush now, gtg already!!
Cyaup! all
Cheers to 09!
Put everything bad back and everything good forward
Cheers! (Oh ya and my frnds are with me now :) ) December 25 Merry Christmas!! (08)Hey everyone!!
Its Christmas (again). Well ok everyone one feels that way, but im sure every single chirstmas is different.
Hokay. Exam week was 2 weeks ago, hols started last week, and yesterday it finally dawned on me that today was chirstmas. I received a call yesterday that there was a party? (to be exact 2 hours before it started) YA LIKE WTH I GOT THE WRONG TIMING. Was kinda glad to see my sec sch classmates again, really awesome, I went around hugging people you know... And then, mr mark the great guy had to rush home to charge his silly phone(i needed it), and rush back to church for candle light service. And poof - Chirstmas came.
And as usual the flood of smses came in, and i spent the first hour of christmas looking for coke. Like ever so desperately. I remembered how i spent my hols.
Firstly, how to drag mark out of bed - "mark wanna meet up tmr 8am.... at MAC'S ?? " - zoom mark flies out of bed
Secondly, how to make mark hang out for 15 hours straight - Just when im about to go home, homies gave me a call, and argh!! hang out again...
Yaa.. and the homies will hang out at cineleisure, at the usual restaurant (the owner is really scared of us) but although we offer good money, the poor shop will end up making a loss in the end. Cause (for some reason) when we're there customers leave.... haha We were there on the 23rd, just came from jonald's b day party(hosted by me!!) and yeah i swear there were serveral people staring at us. Look at us, aren't we awesome?
I came back home and yes... my parents kinda told me i shouldnt hang out for so long and all that. I agreed completely with them, but half way during the lecture I had a BIGGG BURNING QUESTION that i needed to ask. So I was like "wait, you're indian and mommy is chinese. How do both of you get along?" HAHAwell it sounds really really stupid but it never came across me in my whole 17 years of being alive so far, and trust me, being a "cross breed" for so long I suffer alot from the cultural clashes,so i decided to ask. At least the question made their jaws drop. and i got to go to bed earlier!! Im a legend.
Got another party tmr (even after chirstmas) and hopefully you guys enjoyed your celebrations
Cheers!!
Mark-
-And on christmas, people tell the truth- October 29 Piper Warrior 2 and Meisje meisjeHey guys.
Recently was my first flight in SYFC. Well usually when i tell people youth flying club, they're like "omg mark!!! do you fly the real thing??" Well YES! AS AT 14/10/08, I did. Clogged up 1.1 hours of flying time:) Flying is really easy actually, and really really fun. I experienced positive and negative Ge forces WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOT!!!!!!!!!!!!, and back on the ground, it felt really great!!! aw I soo wanna fly!! Its like I felt so awake(yeah surpirsingly) and alert and bright. haha! But with flying comes a whole lot of studying time, its like going to 2 schools at once, temasek polytechnic, and aviation groundschool. So Dear Mark, please study hard if not you'll get phased out, like 90% of the guys do. And I'll probably do some crappy modelling after i get phased out (imagine me.... CATWALKING????) , compared to a career as an RSAF pilot..... Zomg f16s
And what was i doing one week later? I went for tkd training, one of my favs. And yesterday? We lost a bet. If we won, my friend would have to propose to a girl HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH LOLOLOLOLOL but nah, we wouldnt get him to do that. He would at least have to hit on her, sparks were already flying between them lol. Nowadays love seems so... not genuine, superficial. He kinda reminded who the real me was, and how a courtship/relationship should actually feel like. Bah, drop it mark/
A while ago I ate this chocolate buffet with my family at fullerton hotel. Whilst indulging in the all gorgeously "I dont mind" sinful food there was fireworks. I went out by myself by the singapore river and stared up into the light of the dark sky. It was falling everywhere all around me. And yes, i was surrounded by couples. I felt lonely at once, and thought of her. I had tickets that night to the fireworks, but nope, I didnt ask her. Just like I had tickets to the click five, singfest and all that. Easily made available via "my gang". Nope, it wasn't the right time. That night peopel were checking me out. Even at SAJC, stuff happened. It all reflected, I didnt deserve it.
Oh ya, my frnds are friggin crazy lol! they're like "mark, she gives a dam about you...if you dont hit on her I'll take down turning your head during the next taekwondo training!!" oh no we ded.
Haha!!!
Cya all my blogviewers!!!
(100 viewerships in 2 weeks and still no comments.... singaporeans.... tsktsk)
=)
September 15 My Little ReflectionIts been 3 weeks, since I fought in Pesta Sukan Nationals, but the memories are still fresh. Okay now, THAT was so cliche.
Well ok, I always learn alot from my fights in Taekwondo. Ahh, I must say, this is one of the more painful fights I had. Glad to say, I recovered from all my injuries, all thats evident is the little bloood clot on my finger naiL? Is it a blood clot?
Yeah, I really got injuries on all the weird places. ankles, knees and not to mention my butt. He was kicking really really low, and trust me, his kicks were the type where you know.... asteroids hitting earth type. I was playing back the vid of my second fight in slow mo. And dude, it really looked like he packed a punch. I can't imagine how I actually lived through that lol. He was also injured, limping really badly after the 3rd round. my parents described it as (barely able to walk) I cant imagine that I didnt notice that he was in pain? He hid it well(SO DID I) Yup, so did I on that BIGGGGG blue black you gave me on my butt. I swear, everytime I sit down I'm forced to think of that guy. That guy also hit my groin dammit, he hit through the guard. nearly fell on my knees. idiot.......
Speaking of which I was playing really fierce and aggressive towards my first opponent. I had to be, to scare my second opponent lol(knew he was tough..), Im sure he was watching my first fight.
Well, the tkd season is over, thats the end of my dieting and my healthy lifestyle lol. Im back to coke, I stopped jogging, I got a little thin. ANd, lazier. Could you believe it? The only time I'll actually train, get fit and put on some MUSCLES! is for tkd. ------Mark = Lazy boy, tkd retard.
And YESH, Today...... Is Edbert Foo's birthday!!! whooooot! oh yeah, we were chatting over the phone from midnight all the way till 2 lol (like girls) That was the least I could do for my friends birthday right? The usual typical crapping, and I noticed the difference on what we spoke about ,comparing with our times back in sec sch. Well, we've entered poly. Life has changed for the both of us. But Im still full of my silly SA crap. Good luck have fun Edbert on your birthday good night
Mark July 12 Tkd for lifeJeeeez peeeps im speechless for once.
Tkd PA champs is like in a few hours time..... and 35thPesta Sukan Nats is next month. Been training like almost everyday since last week?yeapp.jogging, pushups, using shin weights.i'm fighting ACME, its the third time fighting them in a national competition. They're the club which gets most of the gold medals from the tournaments? Thus, meeting them in the first round is not a good thing
Got like 4 fights to get to finals. Im not the confident of winning anything. But nonetheless, I'll put up a fight! yeah! Right now i'm feeling nervous, excited and a little scared. Im fighting fit, been "dieting" a liitle to stay below 61 kg. My body is not seasoned for fighting, would be going to church tomorrow with tonnes of injuries. And i nearly forgot, there's pattern competition tmr. Teaming up with TJC people. Lol they're really nice. I was feeling pissed the other day and was greeted by 3 smiling faces haha It really lit up my day
Tkd is the only thing im so passionate about, yes these competitions mean alot, been training hard, i got a few poly frnds supporting me in this, a few, and many many other guys from sec sch, and club giving me encouragement and all that. My parents aren't exactly happy about this whole tkd thing either. Had a tiff with them just now (not something you need before a competition), so im kinda a lonewolf now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jvjvugJ2rFM tkd knockouts
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sfGz35FyV0U Best of Athens 2004
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aSsEniLha5M&feature=related Olympics tkd gold medal match (MUST WATCH!!!)
Singapore tkd standard is not near that. SO thank god, im safe for now haha
Signing off....
I  TkdJuly 03 One of my best birthdays, ever.Ok continuation from the previous blog entry.
I got off the plane from germany, and i already had many things to do. The moment i got off, i was like talking to my friends over the phone, the usual brainless chatting. But oh yeah, it felt great, speaking to your good friends again and once again, the moment i landed in singapore, the next 3 days for me was already fully booked.
17th june
I didn't exactly want to go to st andrews on that day..... until i heard that they planned something for my b day! haha oh yeah Yes, some of the YFC trainers came down and we had a mini celebration. It was awesome alright. Just that, someone threw the half eaten cake away, dude imagine that? I wanted to eat every bit of cake that there was, because cherishing what my friends did was really important!!! Its the thought that counts yeah? and they threw the cake in the dustbin. oh man.
Spent it with the St andrews guys, jonald, marcus sng and ky, and the unity gang and peeps. And there was tkd training! oh yeah, but i cant remember what we did, met up with tkd mates and had a good chat more fun than ever, and it wasnt even my birthday yet And yes, seriously i appreciate it alot jonald you're the best!:)
18th june
Happy birthday mark!! at like 12 midnight, a flood of smses came in, wishing me happy birthday and stuff, i was sooo excited! Then in the morning went for DPAIG meeting. well i didnt exactly go to tp with a smiling face...... Roderick was the first one to wish me happy birthday! I mean nothing beats havinga friend who really cares enough to remeber your birthday and wish you on that day. ( Grats rod! first DPA peep to wish me happy birthday) As i went for the meeting, i couldn't help but to have a feeling that they really forgot my birthday, it sucks. But no! they suddenly started singing happy birthday, like everyone in the LT? And MY and HC gave me a present! haha so nice :)
I had to leave early at 11 plus for my PPL, YFC interview, it was really important, literally everyone's dream and once in a life time opportunity. So yeah i wanted to go. The interview, already being postponed twice, landed right on my b day. And, it was delayed. Like dammit i had to go for a party the homies planned after that and it was delayed? I brought some presents already, extra change of clothes and most importantly, each of them set aside some time apart from their painstakingly busy schedule. and i didn't turn up, couldn't turn up.
I swear that was going to be one of the best parties ever, although it was just us, and pizza, presents, a PC and an Xbox, im sure we were soooo gonna have a good time. They were really pissed that i couldn't turn up, but i hope they'll understand, sure they'll understand.
By then the homies all were busy again in the evening, so i made my way down for the class bbq, still feeling regretful. Our class rep was nice enough to place it on my birthday so we could celebrate together. One of my classmates gave me a birthday present! it was buttered corn from the bbq. Eh and mind you i brought it alllllllllllllll the way home to eat man, i also took pics of it! yup, its the thought that counts! haha One thing about my class this year, i respect everyone alot, because everyone is so mature, tactful and nice. =)
Infact, my birthday celebrations continued for like 2 days after my birthday. And i noticed that people may feel that this post is all about me, myself and I. But infact, its about what friends are willing to do, the extend that people are willing to go, just to show that they care. Making them shine out from this horid world filled with evil, miscommunication and (other silly stuff). Pics are up on my blog :)
Cheers to YFC mates, juniors, NOS clan mates, tkd, TP classmates, the multi racial gang, and many more!
(sorry homies for missing the party you guys planned)
Love, mark |
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