Bad dreams. That's what kids have right? Then convince me I'm not a kid.

 

My life in general has been changing pretty much. I'm making really hard decisions and looking to my past with much jealousy. Sometimes, I feel that there's only so much juice you can squeeze out of a lemon, other than that its time to move on. And even so, it feels like I'm wasting my life away. I've been too used to contributing, teaching people things etc. And when I dont do so for some strange reason I feel like a wastrel. Bleah, no link to what I've got to say today.

 

Ok, so, saturday was pretty fun, saw the new stunt plane fly, cs till really late reached home sleeping at 1am. And thats when my little nightmare started. Usually when people have nightmares... Well im not sure about you guys. When I have it, I go on looking to see what will happen next. You know the "playing along" sorta thing. But this one was different. It was so damn real. (If you were thinking im going to blog about my dream, I AM! haha deal with it or close the window :) )

 

You wont treasure your loved ones till you lose them. And in that dream, I dreamnt that the person I was about to lose had like 30 days left to live due to some sort of cancer(starting with c i think) and yeah, in the dream I visited places in my life, school and orpc(church). Not really favourable conditions I would say. But I was really really sad. Like with a hopless feeling and a sorrowful dread as I carried on with the count down. I remembered in church everyone I standing and singing. I just sat there with tears in my eyes and turned to my favourite hymm, hopeing to find some sort of comfort or happiness.

 

And then came this scenario(the final part, yes guys I know this is reeeeeely boring for you but I do feel I have to blog about my Zzzz dream...) This guy came to rob the precious someone who had 30days to live. Yeah. I remembered. The first thing that came to my mind - with whatever skills I have learnt I was going to take him down and injure him. ANDDD>>>>>>>> Just before I went rendezvous the dream ended.

 

haha! yeah eeveryone must have gone... Omg! you skipped the most interesting part!!! m y  b l og  i s  n o t  f o r  e n t e r t a i n m e n t. There was a huge lump in my throat and my pillow was wet with tears. ITS NOT DROOL FOR SURE, cause my eyes were wet. I didnt know I had so much tears. Crying like a little baby.

 

Anyway, my sensitive and seemingly stupid and pathetic and boring blog entry about a silly dream that made me cry is to tell you that sometimes, you wont treasure your loved ones until you lose them. And the reason I DID cry was because I seemed so real, and then again, I didnt know I had so much tears. Well, hopefully I'll take this as a lesson and so would you. (you'll never imagine what happened that day. Im scared as hell)

 

Take care everyone cya guys